I regularly tutor a university unit dedicated to informing students about identity online, including concepts like digital footprints and digital shadows. Much of the discussion involves public and private content, and how privacy may be a thing of the past, though opinions are usually divided on that front. In the few years I’ve been involved with this unit I’ve seen a strong shift in perspectives from students coming through, which is interesting in and of itself. Many are more than happy to barter their data for free access to select social networks, whilst others resent the intrusion. It’s hard to say if this shift is real or imagined – it could simply be a shift in which group is more vocal with their opinion.

But every time the unit starts I remind myself that I’m not doing a great job managing my identity/ies (depending whether you’re a modernist or post-modernist thinker). I really don’t provide a good working example of what I’m teaching. I spend a lot of time censoring myself online, to keep private things private. Or conversely, I share everything and ‘damn the consequences’. I homogenise myself to be ‘generally palatable’, rather than making a stand with my interests.

This mentality has got to stop.

I’m an open sort of person – hence ‘open thoughts’ – but I used to also be an avid journaller when security measures were so easily managed on my beloved LiveJournal. I used to be able to write about all the mundane things that interested me and share my thoughts with a closed circle of friends; friends I became really close to because they were also writing about the flotsam and jetsam of their lives. LiveJournal was – and hopefully still is – the repository of shared human experience that takes more than three seconds to read. LiveJournal was visceral and emotional and real.

At some point Facebook and Twitter encroached on these close-knit circles of friends, other journal sites cropped up (Dreamwidth comes to mind), and everyone seemed to… grow up, at least according to two former LJ users. I think it’s more complicated than that, however. Lynch pin personalities drifted away (as lynch pins are so often the first to find something new), and circles fell apart around their voids; people grew up because LJ wasn’t there for them anymore. There wasn’t enough social glue to stick together.

Perhaps it’s part of the changing of the guard, from the original web to so-called web 2.0. Early adopters and transitional adopters seemed to make up the bulk of LiveJournal users whilst I was there – I, myself, an early adopter/transitional adopter of the web. We were still using handles and avatars and roleplaying and toying with our identities. We were complex and nuanced. We were interested and interesting. We were marvellous.

Now there is Facebook, which is full of reposts and meme-wank, and very little original content (also, I hate it). Or Twitter, which I love, but find I don’t have much time to be perpetually present. Twitter requires a greater time commitment to keep up than it does in writing and tweeting. I find I’m less and less interested, frequently tweeting and seldom sticking around to read what’s happening. I could look in on LiveJournal once a week, catch up on my friends posts, leave comments and a post of my own, and not have to sift through the wank and the noise to know what was happening in my friends’ lives. 

My friends’ lives mattered more to me when they weren’t sandwiched between memes and quizzes. I am saddened by this realisation.

Social networks are fascinating creatures; a mostly organic ouroboros of trend setting and trend following. And the pressure to perform can be crippling, when ‘going viral’ may be the sole driving force for sharing anything.

“It could go viral, so I better watch what I write.”

“I want this to go viral, so I better watch what I write.”

“I want to belong with the people behind this hashtag. This hashtag is the song of my people!”

I miss the times when I didn’t need to ‘watch what I write’, when I could share the mundanity of my day, and shake off the detritus of my anxieties or aggravations with a group of people I know and trust. Now, it seems everyone is screaming into a vacuum: “Look at me! Look at what I’ve done! I am the product of what I share!” 

Distributed identities is another concept we discuss, though more in terms of distributed content and conversation rather than identity specifically. But when we’re spread across social networks (Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Flickr, Instagram, G+ [if anyone is using that anymore], LiveJournal, WordPress, Blogger, Ello…etc.), managing different circles of friends and commensurate identities, we become like Bilbo’s last scraping of butter spread across too much bread.

I need to remix myself and set aside a space where I can, once again, write about what’s really on my mind. I need to shirk my homogeneity and reinvigorate my personal spaces. I’m going to get ‘real’ again.

I’m going back to LiveJournal.

(Approved accounts on open thoughts can read protected crossposts where I back-up my content.)


  • Katie Writes Stuff


    It’s as though you pulled many of these thoughts out of my own head! The emigration to facebook from LJ saddened me so much – all of sudden, I went from being able to enjoy reading about my friends’ adventures or thoughts to being served up with unsatisfying single-sentence status updates. Check-ins instead of stories. A low-quality selfie instead of a handful of photos and words. It’s even worse now, as you say. I’m cutting back on facebook more and more as I realise the time I spend there could be better used elsewhere.

    I seriously considered LJ when I decided to return to blogging. It was the best place to begin my foray into blogging and I’ll always have a soft spot for it so I’m glad to see it’s still getting some love.

    • Amelia Beare


      I just need to remember how to plug back into the journalling community! It’s one thing to remember how to write and get back into that habit, but when you’ve been away from a community for so long, it’s no longer a part of your daily routine. And, unsurprisingly, all but a handful of my LJ friends have fallen off the site. I’m not at all sure how people go about finding new friends on LJ these days. It used to be okay to stalk through friends of friends lists to find someone who looks interesting, but it takes a lot longer now, when you’ve also got to check if their last post is more recent than 2009. lol

      I admire how you maintain your blogs and journals. Bottle and sell that to me, would you? :)

      I’m hoping there’ll be a swing back to more ‘genuine’ content one day, but it all rather fell apart with the advent of ‘real names’. Suddenly, people were more concerned their profiles and appearance when their real name was attached. I’m not sure we’ll be able to move back from that, since there’s now a generation of users accustomed to real name associations. Poor darlings may never know the freedom of the LiveJournal experience. Especially since anonymity = trolls, rather than privacy these days. Something else I meant to mention in this post, but time got away from me.

      You should write up an entry advising how to get back into journalling, and who to read in the community. And I should spend some time reading through all your entries that I’ve missed so far this year because of things. :)

      • Katie Writes Stuff


        It was nice to be able to have a username rather than your real name – when I felt like a change, it just cost me a bit of money on LJ. There’s no changing my real name! Well, not easily, at least. Even though I really wanted people to come along and read my LJ, it always made me feel weird if someone I knew in real life was reading it. In many ways, it was easier to have strangers on the other side of the world reading my LJ than someone I worked with.

        Getting back into blogging has been one of my best decisions of the past year. It’s so much fun to be able to write about whatever I please and to have an excuse to take photos of random things. I’m not sure I’m any sort of expert on the whole thing, but I have been enjoying the process of finding new and interesting blogs and making tentative connections with people on my wavelength. And I did have a vague plan of writing some posts about blogging, so you never know – this very topic may pop up one day!


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